omg. the months without grey's have been an absolute torture. i'm happily going through the 4th season now (((: the monologue at the end of every bloody episode just voices out everything. haha. it makes all the emotions roll over me like waves. hah. i rmb how deb and i used to gush and bitch about grey's ): i miss you debbb.

episode 6. learning to let go. can i let go? haha. the question has been going round and round for years. i'd thought by now, i'd have gotten tired of thinking about that question, tired of getting hurt and all that. sadist i am.

i'm actually pretty looking forward to going with cass for mambo when i get back :p ahaha. i've never clubbed with seto before. tis going to be interesting. grins.

i need an anchor desperately.

suddenly everyone seems to be frog-leaping into a whole different level from what i've been used to. its expected, yet still shocking. it feels like i'm standing from afar looking on, but its not like i want to be on that level. i just wish i had the way up. hah. i'm not making sense again.

i can't wait for angie, kaleni & singapore. all in that order (: